I wonder sometimes if I live in a universe that is different from the one everyone else lives in. I see something that was written or shared and I think, "Wow! That's really good and is deserving of some attention. Maybe it could make a difference if a few people saw/read/heard that." And then, it goes nowhere.
Instead, I see things that are sensationalized getting all of the attention. I see people who put themselves up as icons and influencers - perfection personified - and many happily follow them, much to our collective detriment.
I'm just not clued in, I guess.
I'm like Mr. Aubergine, I want to learn things AND I understand that there is always more to learn. Always curious. And the only thing I am certain of is that I don't understand much of anything perfectly.
And I live in a world where so many other folks appear to understand EVERYTHING perfectly. And even if they don't (and even if they know they don't) - they'll still act like they do.
I'm not clued in.
I know a lot about postal history. But, the subject is too large and I know there is so much I do not know.
I know a fair amount about adult education (that's part of what my PhD is in). But, I've never managed to perform a task in adult education without an error.
I even have expended significant time learning about the pesticide problem and about Earth-friendly growing methods that work with nature. And, I still stumble over a term or concept here and there and failure on our farm occurs on a monthly, and sometimes daily, basis.
I write fairly often and reasonably well, yet I still find errors in my text after proof-reading more than once.
Yet, there are all of these personalities showing us they KNOW exactly how everything should be - how it all should go. Trying to influence us to be that way too.
Hiding the flaws that you and I actually know are there.
Well, folks. I am not clued into that.
I will actually allow myself to admit that I am pretty good at some things. I have a fair amount of knowledge in a few things. I am decent at learning. I am willing to take complexities head-on. There are times when maybe it would be good if others listen to my ideas or opinions. Our farm has actually done pretty well over the years - even if it hasn't been perfectly executed.
And I am flawed. I can be short-sighted at times. I don't always have the energy to follow through with things I know I need to do. I don't express my opinion sometimes when I should and other times when I shouldn't.
Part of what motivates me to keep learning and continue to work on being a better person is my growing awareness of what I know and what I do NOT know. My ability to recognize when I can and should speak or act with integrity continues to be a work on progress.
I am not perfect, but I will keep working towards that goal. I will work towards perfection knowing I will fail, because I can't even begin to imagine exactly what perfection will look like. But, I can visualize "better than I am now." So, that's where I intend to go.
I AM clued into that.